Despite my best intentions, so far my blogging career has not gotten off to the best start, and I have only myself to blame.
When I first started, I thought paying for a website and hosting services would motivate me to keep this blog up-to-date. Otherwise I’ve simply thrown that money down the toilet. My mistake, however, was having no way to keep myself accountable. I wrote at the end of every month, doing my progress reports, and whenever I felt like it … which was rarely. That’s a pretty poor recipe for success.
That changes this month. I am committing myself to this. From here on out, I will publish something every day. There is no ifs, ands or buts about it. No excuses.
This is a far greater challenge that it may first appear. You see, I have an almost pathological perfectionism when it comes to writing. I sometimes rewrite a simple email six or seven times, never satisfied, never sending it until it’s ‘perfect,’ whatever that means. For longer works such as blog posts, that feeling intensifies even more. I had hoped having a blog would help address this issue, but so far it’s the status quo.
Overcoming this anxiety would be a major stepping stone in my personal development. Despite my fear of publishing my writing (and it really is a fear; I freak out), I never missed a deadline at school or work. I suppose the fear of missing the deadline overrided the fear of wriitng. I’m hoping the same will work here, as I now have a deadline of midnight every single day, at least for the summer. If it works, I’ll keep doing it. If I only produce word vomit, well, we’ll try something else.
Prepare for a busy summer!