April has not been the kindest chess month for me. It should have been my best, as I was one move away from beating a titled player … and then I blundered. I threw the game away in the most heartbreaking, disappointing way possible. Seriously, I spent about three days wondering whether I should just give chess up rather than dealing with such disappointment.
I rebounded, in a way. I beat two players with rating over 2000, one over 2100, but I still felt unmotivated. I stopped studying and took a break. That time off seemed to energize me, as I’m back to normal now, more or less. That loss will forever haunt my dreams, though … Continue reading